DJE DESIGNS

Our reason behind raising money.

So I’m not usually one to explain myself or seek help when I need help but 2017 was the hardest year of my life! The amount of times I have just said to myself “I give up”, “I’m over trying”, “why bother with life if I’m not getting anywhere”. All I needed that day was a simple “Are you okay?” I guess that’s why they have created the R u Ok? days because people like me hide anything and everything because they are ashamed of how they are! Friday the 12th of May 2017 I wanted to end my life completely! This could have ended badly although I’m so grateful now it didn’t. Nobody should be made to feel so isolated like I did. It led to new doctors, new psychologists, new and stronger medication. It took myself a few months to put all the past behind me... Towards the end of the year and 2018 I kept telling myself  I deserve to be confident in my own skin and having control over my own mind.  2018/2019 were great years for me. 2020 we brought into the world my Daughter which unfortunately I was striked with Post Natal Depression (PND) this took a very big toll on me into stepping back into the workforce causing major separation anxiety to leave my daughter and I’m still struggling minor with these. I have my days where I’m in a shell and don’t want to come out and other days are the best days ever! I know that I will over come this and I can see the light and rainbow at the end but there is still so many hurdles in my way. I do believe my past in 2017 is hanging on telling me that everything will be okay because I have survived it before and nothing will bring me down again!